I'm bored, so I thought I might post an update. 4/7/19

So, I think I should cover up my cringey 13-year-old posts with this one, updating y'all (if there are any of you) about my shitty life. Well, I moved to New Hampshire (nearing EIGHT MONTHS??? ago now) and haven't even been able to talk to anyone that I was friends with in Texas pretty much since the last day of school. School sucks, family sucks, life sucks in general. Thank God I met some online friends over Fortnite, and we have a great group of friends. I was even in a relationship but it ended over some complicated stuff so yeah. I have been worrying about the future and thinking about the past a lot, and it sucks. I don't know what to do when I'm 18. It's stressful. I'm probably doing online school next year (thank God) and for the rest of high school. But I despise myself. Every part of me is abnormal and hideous. I try to distract myself from me by composing music, talking to friends, or playing video games. I wish everything could go back to the way it was back in December--or even in March 2018.